Hello! Finally gona update my dead-much blog. Hmmm. Recently, i've lost my iphone, which was a birthday gift from my mom. It's not much of a heartache, as i've also lost someone who caused me greater heartache. During the journey of losing everything, I've lost myself as well..... it's time to pick myself up ? I guess.
Anyway, I just want to rant about a couple of things. Seriously...
What does a girl need in a boyfriend? Or what do i need/want from a boyfriend? I'm not a demanding person. All I want is commitment, care, concern and understanding. I guess these are what all girls would want to find as well.
I want someone caring, like Fin. Still remembered I had high fever + flu once, last year I think, he came down to my place and brought me hot soya milk and beancurd. I'll never forget that. Even my goodfriend could be so sweet to me, is it difficult for a boyfriend to do so?
I want someone committed like Pear. For all these years I know him, he plays when he is single. But when he is committed, he is really committed. We all can see that. If this quality comes by so easily for my goodfriend, is it demanding of me to want that in a bf?
I finally, finally, got my heart broken once and for all. Had a couple of rships and some of them really do hurt, but this time, it hurts like FUCK. I keep asking myself why, I keep demanding for answers, but I what I got is just more fucked up stuff.
Thankfully I have Sly, my dearest girlfriend, to accompany me thru this tough ride. And also, she is the one who provided me with all the answers that I want to shut myself out and not listen, things that I wouldn't understand.
Lastly, everyone is so sweet to me to help me recover. I will try my best and be happy, for myself and also for everybody who cheered me on.
Thank you all.
