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Nothing but a fool, nothing but a player

2012-02-13T23:24:00.002+08:00

finally saw your true colours.
don't worry... everything is officially over, done & finished.
can't believe i even held 1% hope that things might go back to how they were.
now i will not feel a single pang of guilt as i try my best to move on.
i can't believe i was so naive to have trusted you,
when whatever we had actually meant nothing after i've seen all ur lies.
i'm going to be happy. i'm going to get a better life.
and it is one without YOU.
F.O

move onnnnnnnnnn.

2012-02-12T23:55:00.002+08:00

Been going out a lot lately. Trying to be busy at work, busy at home, busy outside. Just to stop myself from having too many thoughts. Tried to finish all my work at work, altho thats impossible. Played games at home, so that time passes fast. Went to drink and club, just to catch up with all those peeps i've left behind for the past 2 mths.

Idk how long I am going to keep this up. When I'm going to stop and really relax, and think about where do i go on from here (?) . Sigh. Anw, went for dinner with P for some sukiyaki and beef shabushabu at Suki ya.

The q for the carpark was damn longggg.

I got pink feet !

This acrylic gear thing really cute eh.

Cute paper thingy they have to give you tips on a nice shabu shabu experience.

beef is effing fresh ! LOVEEE.

face like a plain today. ):

bye all, another week of work comes and lets hope days pass as quickly as they can.

///

2012-02-05T21:46:00.001+08:00

did you love me
the same way that i loved you
or was it just a moment
that you ever felt you were deeply in love with me?

Have you ever loved me

2012-02-04T00:13:00.003+08:00

why do i feel you are so distant, i feel like i'm so exhausted trying so hard .
and if i give up, will you still be there to tell me not to?

New beginnings

2012-01-30T00:22:00.002+08:00

Weekend spent on a simple dinner at town and shopping for groceries (:

Dined at Taka after walking for ages and ages and boy kept complaining. -_-!! Wanted to find jap food one. I got a hugeeeee craving for jap food!! Even until now! GAH! I want to eat chowamushi, ebi tempura and beef shabushabu ):

Omgg why your hair look so long here. cut it cut it!!

Crab meat spaghetti and beefburg steak. Not bad, real crab meat and plentiful too.

Thin crusted pepperoni pizza. yumms (:

Random, current nails. Love it (: DIY-ed by me!

Kana photobombed!

Recently, fb has been flooding with Vday posts. Reading back my past Vday entries... I think I don't really expect or want to do much about the upcoming Vday anymore. Just a simple meal probably just to pass the day would be sufficient. hurhurhur, i think i'm getting old?

We have many ass inside jokes. TSKTSK.

Time for work tmr. I'm so so so not looking forward to the entire week of work! ): ITS GETTING MORE STRESSFUL. SIGH!

misses

Emo Nemo CNY ):

2012-01-25T00:17:00.002+08:00

Hello all. ): I'm feeling reallyyyy down although I don't have a particular reason for it. I guess its the PMS? Gah. Sucks ttm. Anyway, missed visiting my grandma today due to ______. FML. I've never missed a single visiting for all my life. My mom had to guilty assault me by saying how could i do this when she take care of me when I was young. I feel SO BAD.

Above with Siti at DND. Shes like a mother to me. (:

DND was okay. Moody throughout although I tried very hard not to show it....due to seeing someone. Just kept downing glasses of wine. -_-

Subin (Dennis) from parkway. Very cute vietnam boy. We always head to drink beer after work in the past. Miss those times we just sit by the roadside, drinking my fave - carlsberg premium cans, talking random stuff about life.

Above, my favourite chef from all time, Ah Liang! He cooks the best fried rice (I think I mentioned here many times!)

With cindy and auntie julie. (:

Random snaps...

Ketan my dumdum manager who always disturb me.

I won a best service excellence award!

I lied. It's Ketan's!

Had two bowl of this:

Lol, I look like little red riding hood.

i'm so so so moody. ):

CNY

2012-01-23T11:58:00.003+08:00

I think those who knows me know i detest CNY songs. I get headache and annoyed ): ! This year's CNY. Feels a little bit different...guess i'm not really feeling it. Esp when wednesday, work resumes. What the hell. It's gonna be stressful from now onwards for work.

DND tonight...I miss all my colleagues, but somehow, i dread seeing this one person.

Sigh. I guess it's time I face my demons.

Frustrated

2012-01-16T23:35:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I'm so damn frustrated with my mum. Sometimes she can be such a big fat B!!! REALLY. Wanna scream and throw things at her but I just end up shutting my room door and blasting loud music. She can be so damn unreasonable, and hurtful with everything she says. Just wish she could keep her mouth shut sometimes. Always saying she wish she didn't give birth to all of us, if that's the case, why regret now? DUMBFUCK. Which is why I would never ever want kids. All thanks to my fucking mom.

Must insert a happy photo after typing the above text (that is invisible, don't highlight it if you don't want to read my complains and rants).

Fin drove us to our fave - Bedok Corner for some awesome zhi char.

Guys will always be guys because.....

Photo taken by Pear and Fin. -_____- Of our boobs.

LALALA.

My boy cooked for me...

Lol so cute right the sausage.

Laosai-ed after that.... but I'll give him a rating of 7/10 (: HAHAHA

dimsum with my boyyyyy ♡

Must smile marh!

Kana psycho to eat the custard bun. Got yolk. Yuck ):

Okayy gonna spam camwhore pics of me and i'm off to sleep. Like a zombie now while blogging.

tell me baby will you be here when i wake up, even with no makeup, i don't wanna fake it

What the hell

2012-01-14T00:03:00.003+08:00

I don't understand how this world works.
I don't understand how whatever God that exists in this world,
would bear to see the world get plagued into misery and bitterness.
I don't understand how a good person, good from inside and out,
do not deserve a second chance.

I don't believe in karma or retribution.
I could see he is willing to change.
But this goddamned society is really f*cked.
Now a person with a future found no place here,
perhaps he couldn't even see his family again.

This shyt is so heartbreaking.
I wish you all the best, S.

Eargasm

2012-01-05T21:49:00.000+08:00

If ears could have an orgasm,

this would be the cause of it.

countdown, love.

2012-01-03T20:42:00.001+08:00

Pressies for all my loved ones.

See the stupid idiot always disturb me.

Had countdown at summer breeze. Loved this place...but they turned the place like some weird outdoor disco shit on new yr. And the prices are crazy, food are limited. Gahh!

Strawberry beer. For the girls.

Tomyum spaghetti. DARN GOOD.

Ah boy's chicken cutlet with no sauce -_-" . How can anyone eat it without sauce? Weirdo.

Somehow, I always capture Fin's weird facial expressions. HAHAH.

Party poppers!!

Clock strikes 12...

Check out this chick filled with fake snow from top to toe.

I was unsure before, but now, all I can think of is you .

very very much in love with this song.

,.

2012-01-01T03:54:00.003+08:00

somehow, i am always successful in fucking both my love life and friendships up.

welldone.

i wanted you to be there when i fall ;

2011-12-31T13:55:00.003+08:00

Xmas dinner with family.

Been sometime i actually hung out with my family.

In love with salted egg yolk crab, chilli crab, black pepper crab. (!!!)

I wonder when was the time that I've forgotten to care.

Don't go

2011-12-27T23:21:00.000+08:00

I know korean songs are so cliche, but I love how this whole storyline was filmed.

party party all night night night sleep all day and do it again

2011-12-27T20:10:00.003+08:00

Crazy night at Zouk.

Had so much sourplum, martell and moet, Jenny went crazy, everything was a blur and my feets were all black when the night was over.

Sigh, gotta love champagne.

Seriously, Jenny went crazy and I had a super duper hard time taking care of her at the toilet, i almost died dragging her back to Phuture. The bouncer even wanted to ban us, but luckily I pleaded with him -_-!

So many girls around, i have no idea what their names are but we partied, hugged, kissed and drank like mad anyway.

Uhhhh... and I'm the shortest gurl around ): cuz i dislike wearing heels to club.

we both knew this type of life didn't come with instructions
so i'm trying my best to make something out of nuthin'

Xmas Eve

2011-12-25T16:42:00.004+08:00

MERRY XMAS ALL!

Had steamboat at Pear's house last night. Awesome salmon (marinated by me), beef shabushabu, shrimps, fishballs, sausages, cheese tofu, egg tofu, crabmeat and a gazillion mushrooms for our steamboat.

Thanks mel for the purple furry slippers and foot creams!

It's Christmas today. Do you even care?

Emotional

2011-12-24T17:55:00.002+08:00

Hai, im blogging now with Jenny on my bed. Having hangover on Xmas eve. HOW FUN. Anyway... Aura with Jenny to celebrate A's bday.

Birthday cake also got rules....

Huat ah ice cream cake from swensens :D

Camwhored (:

Was pretty crazy cus obviously I'm not working there....and we end up hopping tables here and there -_-" Feel kinda bad to E cos he was sick and I just ran off to find J's friends.

Jenny so cute in her mini skirt! (she wore like that cuz she thought she was gonna work) ._.

LOL.. the above pic never fail to make me laugh. Cos me and J mistook her for a siambu (i thought she was china actually) and then A got really mad, and said SHES WORTH 3 MIL OK. And me and J was like O.O"" HAHAHAHA. UHHHH.

Anyway, so we drank and drank and drank like mad at N's table, and i just couldn't maintain. HURHUR...next thing I know, I was with J at mac having breakfast and we poured out our sadness like all girls do to each other whenever they are not sober.

): life's tough, whats new.

sigh

2011-12-20T20:13:00.003+08:00

There comes a time in life, where you have to let go of all the pointless drama & all the people who create it , surround yourself with people who makes you laugh till you forget all the bad things
& focus solely on the good.

I will be

2011-12-19T22:10:00.001+08:00

I will be
All that you want
And get myself together
Cuz you keep me from falling apart

Angel with a shotgun

2011-12-17T17:53:00.003+08:00

Somehow fin looks cute in the pics . xoxo

Seriously, recently have been quarrelling with someone. Its damn fked up because its always regarding the same issue. And Sly's out of town....I have nobody to talk to and I feel so damn shitty. Fed up. Sick of talking, sick of trying to argue my way out, sick of everything. Just wana throw everything away and run. F.

Anyway, dinner/supper with Foursies Pear, Fin and Mel.

Srsly most awesome zhi char i've eaten since a long time at Bedok Corner.

You don't care. You never did. If you did, you would be reading this space.
I'm a fool once again.

(:

2011-12-14T00:56:00.002+08:00

Things are picking up recently. Less unhappiness, got a new temp job, made new friends and less troubles on my mind.

However, theres still problems lying here and there, like my damn debts and the unfortunate luck i have to have met you out of coincidence. I don't even get it? You are the one who did me wrong, yet you have the cheek to show your face like that. How cheap can you get.

Just a casual remark, and i've got a bouquet sitting on my table now. @.@ , thanks E.

love . hurt.

2011-12-10T14:20:00.001+08:00

Wanna sing this with you .

Job hunt

2011-12-08T21:29:00.002+08:00

Went for interview, was a disappointment. Made a lot of preparations for it though. Took a week off from work, seriously headache about how my next month income gonna come by, and all my freakinggg debts.

Just wanna keep smiling and hope I pull thru, and when I do, hope I see rainbows at the end of the road, waiting for me . Seriously feel like shopping so badly, been so long since I bought myself a new dress/shorts/top/bangles whatever. But right now, its not an option since I'm unemployed fo' real.

So much drama happening lately but obviously not as dramatic as last month. Thank god. Hope all the drama stays as minimal as it can be. Love december, love the christmas mood. Do hope nothing can ruin it. Last year, my xmas was spent with someone I used to love, everything was so awesome, but we just lost it. This year, I would be spending it with no other than my Foursies (hopefully) ! If not I'd be eating turkey alone at home. HURHUR.

Kinda love my happy smile. These days I've been putting too much of a fake front too much, its getting a lil tad tiring. I am kinda sick of trying to guess what are people's thoughts, and trying to play your games with you.

I think I'm drowning, asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell, that you've created

you're something beautiful, a contradiction
I wanna play the game, I want the friction

I wanted freedom, bound and restricted
I tried to give you up, but I'm addicted

My 21st

2011-11-29T02:35:00.002+08:00

This year, my biggest wish for my 21st is to spend it with all my loved ones. And i'm so glad they all came :D!

My countdown party at Lovedrunk ^.^

Tinkerbell balloon they got for me. MAJOR HEARTS. I LOVE TINKERBELL! (I hardly think anyone knows this but they do!!!)

OWL ACCESSORIES. AHHHHHHHHHH. LOVE LOVE LOVE.

Masks for them to wear and camwhore for fun :D !

BUNNY EARS FOR ME!

Girlfriend's double toast for me.

With fin xoxo

Ahboy bought a graveyard for me......

Played a game of finishing it in 10 mins with help on the table if not there comes one more graveyard.

Drink drink drink

Drink drink drink

Pear helped / HAHAHA

Mel helped too

Tadaaa lastly its meeee who finishes it off.

Blew the bottle....

Sang songs while we are so crazy.

Foursome pic!

Love this pic xoxo

Twinnie came down!

Ending it off with a last picture !

what a blast of a birthday ! LOVE YALL.

Astronaut

2011-11-26T01:20:00.002+08:00

my mind is running empty
in this search for someone else
who doesn't look right through me
its all just static thru my head

Bring me to Neverland

2011-11-25T00:32:00.003+08:00

I dislike thai discos. After experiencing a lot of shit from there, and other reasons (some know why) I don't go there. But yesterday, for the first time in months stepped into one, Neverland. It was their anniversary and I didn't regret going!

My new idol.

Why she so pretty one. I look like some plain jane. :(

Ah boy!

A photographer took this for us. His camera was like crazy big sized with the lens and everything and when he used my camera I bet he must be thinking imma noob. :(

My eyes are like ^.^

Our table got long balloons!

My favourite - BALLOONS ! I LOOOVE BALLOONS ESP AFTER I DRINK HAHAHA. And i love purple tooooooo !

My new love, furry jacket.

Played with some effects of the camera.

When you get close , .

Party hard

2011-11-20T18:12:00.002+08:00

MUST CUT DOWN!

Elephants

2011-11-19T00:02:00.002+08:00

Swensens with foursie bestie!! Fin treated :x HEEHEE. Jealous much Sly ?!

Him gazing at his freaking spicy black pepper spag.

Seafood in a basket ! Woohoo. Love seafoodddd.

Mine, baked spaghetti with meatballs. Gotta love meatballssss.

Took picture with the cute silver elephant! LOVE IT!

I want you to stay away from my heart +

Friends

2011-11-17T16:29:00.001+08:00

Proper update soon . xo

Sick enough to die

2011-11-16T19:13:00.002+08:00

I love the fact the girl drew him,
and erased him.
And he erased her back.

I need a getaway

2011-11-14T23:56:00.003+08:00

We're all part of the same
sick little games
and i need a getaway, getaway

I'm wasting my days
I throw them away
losing it all on these sick little games

In another life

2011-11-12T14:39:00.004+08:00

Powerhouse with K and Xiao x.

Too bad shits happened and xiao x had to go...

Stole our parents liquor, climbed up to the roof. Talked about the future, like we had a clue +

Yellow diamonds in the lights

2011-11-09T13:58:00.003+08:00

When we were this young, we had nothing to lose

It's 12 o clock and i need your attention, its like the alcohol making my head spin, your scent is the rum, the room is a bottle, keeping me hopeless till i wake tomorrow +

It's a long drive, back to vegas skies

We found love

2011-11-07T16:11:00.001+08:00

Somehow this video reminds me of what you and me used to be....

If I die young

2011-11-01T23:24:00.003+08:00

Keep your friends close and your enemies closer.

Miss my darling sly @.@

If i die young, bury me in satin
lay me down, on a bed of roses
sink me in the river, at dawn
send me away with the words of a love song <3

Pear's 21st !

2011-10-14T16:13:00.004+08:00

Hello. Its been YEARS since I blogged, don't have the feel to as everyday was dark and grey...but now I'm glad things are finally back on track and my life's normal again. Wheeeeee. Anyway, Pear's birthday was awesome, spending time with Foursome like the old days, just that now they all have their gfs/bfs and its a lil bit different from when we were just kids.

Our decoration for the room. FHM! We know Pear likes it. HEHEHEZ.

Had a few birthday pranks before Pear could enter the room.

Pushups with me on top! (Y)

Blindfolded to eat taogay!

Naise.

Bought this drink thinking he doesn't like it but turns out he did...

Makeup!

By professional me of course. Pretty?

Aint his casper hat cute? We all have devil ears though!

Guess what's in the container?

He gotta feel around in the container before eating it!

There he go!

Gummy worms in honey. Ew.

Finally he entered the room after saying a pledge of love to Mel.

And proposing to her.

Touched.

Some group pics.

Cute eh. Drew the tails on.

yumm yumm.

Charcoal facepalm!

Lappys to game and blast music.

With love.

我要放过我自己

2011-09-08T14:51:00.001+08:00

过去的甜蜜，无谓，都是自己以为。。

It's dedicated

2011-09-01T15:53:00.001+08:00

Am I supposed to laugh, like nothing's wrong?

"What do you want? You are drunk again aren't you?"

I don't want to hear it again, so I try hard to sound ok.

Take a look at her, do you like what you see?

2011-08-29T18:02:00.003+08:00

..Life with me, was a fairytale love
I was head-over-heels
Till you threw away us
and its just too bad,
you've already have
the best days of your damned life

But i've been told,
that a cheater, would always be a cheater,
I've got my pride...
and shes got you.

and does she know?
know about the times you used to hold me,
wrap me in your arms
and you told me that i'll be the only one.

BYE, ASSHOLE.

Doo da doo daaa

2011-08-15T17:29:00.002+08:00

Hello! Finally gona update my dead-much blog. Hmmm. Recently, i've lost my iphone, which was a birthday gift from my mom. It's not much of a heartache, as i've also lost someone who caused me greater heartache. During the journey of losing everything, I've lost myself as well..... it's time to pick myself up ? I guess.

Anyway, I just want to rant about a couple of things. Seriously...

What does a girl need in a boyfriend? Or what do i need/want from a boyfriend? I'm not a demanding person. All I want is commitment, care, concern and understanding. I guess these are what all girls would want to find as well.

I want someone caring, like Fin. Still remembered I had high fever + flu once, last year I think, he came down to my place and brought me hot soya milk and beancurd. I'll never forget that. Even my goodfriend could be so sweet to me, is it difficult for a boyfriend to do so?

I want someone committed like Pear. For all these years I know him, he plays when he is single. But when he is committed, he is really committed. We all can see that. If this quality comes by so easily for my goodfriend, is it demanding of me to want that in a bf?

I finally, finally, got my heart broken once and for all. Had a couple of rships and some of them really do hurt, but this time, it hurts like FUCK. I keep asking myself why, I keep demanding for answers, but I what I got is just more fucked up stuff.

Thankfully I have Sly, my dearest girlfriend, to accompany me thru this tough ride. And also, she is the one who provided me with all the answers that I want to shut myself out and not listen, things that I wouldn't understand.

Lastly, everyone is so sweet to me to help me recover. I will try my best and be happy, for myself and also for everybody who cheered me on.

Thank you all.

原來

2011-08-09T17:31:00.002+08:00

原來最孤单的是我还是那么想你，

原来最悲哀的是我还不能面对自己。。。

I love you like a love song baby

2011-08-01T14:20:00.002+08:00

Selena Gomez & The Scene - Love you like a love song

Hooked on this song currently....

Yesterday, met up with someone I haven't seen for a long time. A person I've treated as a good friend, someone who hurt me, brought me tons of pain in the past, and also brought me many experiences I've never would have thought I'd experienced in my life before...be it exciting, adrenaline rushes, etc....

Told myself not to be foolish for one last time, turns out I am a fool once again. I ask myself why I demand answers when I already knew what the answer would be. When someone decided to throw the friendship away, why do i bother to question the reasons? This will be finally the last time i'm finally letting it all go....this past year of how I treated myself because of you, is not worth it and will never be.

You say good morning, when it's midnight

2011-07-22T23:42:00.002+08:00

HELLO, haven't blogged in AGES. So many gazillion things happened....but EVERYONE has to move on, right?? Well, just kidding myself...but heres finally a post. Been procrastinating as I have not gotten my damned camera yet due to some dog who owes me money (a small sum you say?!?!) and refuses to pay up. Well well... i'll just treat it as I have donated to the Foundation for Charity. :) Doing good yes?

Anyway been to Batam for a short trip to just chill, relax, shop etc.

Had my favourite, A&W!! Like finally. The last time i ate was... 12 years old? Gosh, crave sooo much for twister fries and rootbeer float.

Went Nagoya Hills mall and saw this display outside a shop window:

Obscene but cute much.

Went for fish foot massage. I was the one who suggested it and being all enthu. In the end, I'm the one screaming like a bimbo when my feet is immersed. FML :/

My toes all squeezed together as they are so darn itchy.

Going for street stall mee goreng! Authentic indo mee. Eggcited. But the peeps there couldn't understand english. And I can't speak indo/malay. Fml#2. Wanted to tell them "No Spicy Please" but have no idea how to say it in indo. -_- My mee came spicy and I almost teared. Finished it till three quarters and gave up.

My pool teacher :D

Yesssss. Gonna aspire to be a good pool player someday. Watch out yall. Mwhahaha.

Anyway pool at batam was super cheap... like 3 bucks only per hour of pool? We played it at the pub downstairs our hotel. Alcohol's very cheap too... one bucket of beer for 22+? Thats why days spent at batam are kinda like getting wasted nearly everyday.

Stocked up our fridge with alcohol like smirnoff and beer we bought frm a short walk down to the convenience store on our way back to the hotel. The guy working in the convenience store was kinda gay. He looks like a guy but the way he talked was like gentle and girly in a gayish way, but he was very nice to us and even showed us the way to our hotel when we got lost, I think I got a new respect for people with different sexual preference now.

Duty free absolut peach. Yums. Tequila shots at 5 bucks in the pub! Cheapppp or whaaaaat. I would suggest if anyone wanna spend their days getting wasted, going to Batam is the best. Lol.

Indo mee for supper again. I think I had enough of mee goreng when I came back.

Check out my pink neon plaster! Got my knuckles burnt. Lol. Well, seeyall again when I've got my cameraaa.

Whatever it takes

2011-06-29T15:32:00.001+08:00

smellin' like perfume comin' home late
another group of chicks
so many damn mistakes

everything you said i know that it was fake

:D

2011-06-17T12:36:00.002+08:00

有一天相信你会怀念那个傻傻的我，淋着大雨等在你家路口

♥

心痛

2011-06-12T22:46:00.003+08:00

只怪自己当初没有把爱说出口，现在想说声爱你也找不到借口

我连呼吸都很难受。。。

Gonna start work tomorrow. Time to get life back on its right track, work more and put my mind fucking off from stupid things. I hope I can do it. :(

Life Changing

2011-06-10T21:54:00.002+08:00

Haven't blogged in a long time I know. Many many things happened, where shall I start? Everything that occurred seems to be very life-changing for me. If I said I've never meant for any of this to happen, does it matter anymore?

Some people said, it's not entirely my fault. And some, said I'm to blame. My mother especially, whom without fail, keep adding salt to my wounds about what happened. She just couldn't stop for a day or an hour while I'm at home that its due to my nature that things like this happen.

When that uncle said to me those hurtful things to me back at the hospital, I really felt pain. Probably it's because nobody actually said it plainly to me that it is my fault. In actual fact, it is really my fault. I feel pain, cuz everything is of my doing. Pain that I caused two persons' lives to have a drastic change. And my life? Could have went on normally. My mother wished that I let go of everything and try to lead a normal life. But I couldn't. Guilt has chained me.

I feel responsible. Responsible for landing him to hospital. Responsible for ruining someone's bright future. Responsible for crying, depressed parents. I really do not wish to hear another person telling me it's not my fault anymore. Nothing can change my mind.

I don't know what I should do, except trying to take care of whoever I've caused pain, and lessen the other's pain of the entire life being ruined. I wished....none of this had happened. I would pay any price for it....perhaps even land myself in hospital instead, pay with my life or whatever. But such a wish would never come true...instead I have to face the reality that in the upcoming months, ppl's lives would change.

Goodbye

2011-05-14T23:25:00.003+08:00

It is very difficult to deal with letting go...

Be it letting go of your family to live alone,

Be it letting go of a boyfriend whom you love deeply,

Be it letting go of friends you've met at school,

Be it letting go of a relative, a husband, etc....

It is truly the hardest when we had to let Shyrlyn go.

Yesterday I had my first experience of learning the news of a friend that passed away.

First reaction was of course, disbelief.

Then came the shock, and the horror,

and next came in sorrow and confusion.

Disbelief was due to the fact that just last month, we had a couple of drinks together at Chjmes.

That's the second time we ever met.

She talked about herself, and what she do.

Her personality is one of the most unique people I've ever met,

she even told me that she "死爱面子" which nobody ever admitted to me before.

It is unbelievable I was there talking to her, hugging her when she had too many drinks,

and I know that we can never do the same things together anymore.

I start to think: why didn't I try to talk to her more about her life?

Maybe I could have known more and gotten closer to her on that day,

maybe she would have confided in me and none of this would have happened.

But then, who would have known.

Somewhere around my heart, guilt is piling up in tiny bits.

We were not close, not close at all.

Yet I'm confused how,

even someone who was just a normal friend to me, could affect me so much.

And now I'm so sick of using all this past tense like "was" and "were"

to type whatever I'm typing right now in this entry to talk about Shyrlyn.

After everything happened, many thoughts raced through my mind.

I started to fear (for I am indeed selfish) over who am I going to lose next.

What if it is a close friend this time? Or a relative?

I've started living life so casually, I don't seem to realize that people might leave someday.

Dearest Shyrlyn,

I do not know or understand the reason why you did this,

but I sincerely hope wherever you are now,

you are happier than where you were before.

BUSY

2011-05-05T14:40:00.001+08:00

Hey guys, haven't blogged in a gazillion years and this is the reason....

Assessment. Mixed together with work, I've never felt so pushed to the limit in my life before.

Face beaming with smile when I received the results. Can't believe i'm finally relieved from school forever! (after I finished my damned diploma show)

I kinda like my children book. Sadly I screwed up the binding and printing. :( No one can be a bigger screw up than me. I'm amazed how I came so far from first year tho. Where I can't even cut a proper straight line...Nostalgic.

Random, Jenny's 300 bucks ring. -_- Really worth it ?

Guess who I met up with yesterday! CARMEN! 5 years since she appeared in my blog. Ohmygoodness! She finally came back from Australia. We used to eat billy bombers together, laugh in secondary school and now we party together like all grown up. Its weird in a way. Hahaha.

All the girls gathered for Sly's birthday celebration.

I think I'm the only one having different facial expressions cuz nobody knows I'm clicking the button lmao.

Everytime we go party, theres bound to be a problem or trouble here and there. Yesterday, while queuing for drinks, theres this indian couple behind us who said Georgina and Emily didn't queue. That's stupid, because we are in front of that indian couple and they just came like 2 seconds and they are accused of cutting queue.

The guy (whom I suspect, wanted to impress the girlfriend) started to pick a fight with us girls. He started spitting words into our faces, literally, and I argued back with him. As we argued, his face started to inch closer and closer to mine. Feeling disgusted, I clasped my hand on my face, and told him: Please move away from my face. Guess what he replied:

"Why? You think I wanna fuck you?"

Lol. Joke of the day. So I replied him, "No, because your breath stinks."

And he moved backwards immediately, blinked his eyes and looked like its a big surprise he just knew he had bad breath. What an douchebag. Kept making racist jokes saying we are from China and we should all go back to our country, while calling us "little ones". Who said racism doesn't exist in Singapore anymore? Gosh.

The funny thing is, when it reached our turn for drinks, he started to make a scene and prod my shoulder with his finger (while trying to act like his just making a conversation waving his hand around) and the bartender asked me what is wrong. I said, that guy kept bothering us. And tadah, he was kicked outta the queue. Satisfaction never tasted so good.

Yeah, another reason for not blogging is...my camera mysteriously disappeared. Just poof and gone like smoke, what's left is the pouch. (highly suspect my siblings did something to it.....)

Overdued photos of Fin and me at starbucks mugging. Its in facebook but whatever.

I'll blog next time after I get my new cam. :)

Sakae Sushi

2011-04-18T23:44:00.004+08:00

HELLO

Been eating a lot of Sakae Sushi these days. 1 time sakae = 50 bucks fly. OMG. Shall abstain from going there anymore. Don't get me wrong, I'm still a huge hater of sushi. I go sakae sushi to have suki yaki and tempuras.

EEP. Don't get why cutie pie's a big fan of sotong.

YUMYUM ebi tempura! Veh exp but so so soooo heavenly can!!! How I wish theres a place that sells cheap tempuras. I don't get paying 10 bucks for like 4 pieces of prawns?? :(

Lol, cute gel thingy for my suki yaki.

At Central Chjmes with Sly, Shyrlyn and her friend

Lousy pics taken with my iphone. Hooohaaaa.

Some random pics of TOP, my dreammmm guyyyy. LOL.

Bleach blonde hair + purple blazer and suit, REALLY HARD TO RESIST.

Really like his shaved eyebrow. SOOO STYLE.

Would you do it for me cutie pie?? HAHA

BYE, gotta wash off my mask nao.

Me haz new chairz!

2011-04-10T18:26:00.000+08:00

As title says. Unless you don't read titles...I got new chair!! YIPPEEE, all out from my pocket. Well, many will think, "just a chair what..." but nobody knows the pain I've been through! Since like 12 years old, I've been sitting on those cheap 3 dollar wooden stools with no backing thanks to my tuition teacher my mum hired for me when I was young, who said stools are good for learning (coz I don't fall asleep!).

I've asked my mum like a gazillion times but she doesn't wanna sponsor as well. Cmon lah, my furniture is your furniture what, I'm not taking pocket money & school expenses and still have to fork out money for a comfortable chair. -_- Working and studying is uber tough, lecturers & managers will never sympathize with you, I really hate it when she doesn't try to understand as well.

Oh well, moving on.

Lao niang fixed it up herself!! Hehehe!! Am I power or what! I've never touched a screwdriver in my life, and I can never understand instruction manuals for nuts, so I guess its a feat for me!! *paste star stickers for myself*

You like my lil miss sunshine cushion? I like it too!!! Hahahha (self-reply). I stole it from the living room, since nobody wanna sponsor my chair, I'll take the cushion then!

And... y'know, I never thought shopping for a chair is so difficult!! All i wanted is a chair with wheels, comfortable and sleek. The prices are so crazy high just for a stupid chair, it's nuts. I don't for the mind of me comprehend why people pay like 500-1000 bucks for a chair that looks ugly. Mine is pretteh cheap from ikea.

Simpang bedok with Foursome & Melissa

And above is how Chiwee eats his roti prata!! Taken when he came for a short visit at simpang with sly. He folds the thing into a thick stack and eats the prata like a burger! Can you say weird or weird?

Dimsums yumyum

Super love this rice roll with shrimp! But wan tou sek is nicer tho!

We've been hardcore players of monopoly deal these days!

Ending off with a uber cute photo of us!

Nemo and Dory

2011-04-08T13:52:00.002+08:00

Cutie pie's new marine fish tank!! A few nemo died though. Aint marine fish so awesome?

Can you see my ghostly face? Lol

Smelly tofu. From what people say - the smell is horrible but the taste is super good, NO WAY! SMELLS LIKE SHIT, TASTE LIKE SHIT. I'll never go near it or ever put one in my mouth ever again.

Hongkong mian xian. Veh nice! I just ate many pasar malam food these days.

We met the 98.7 fm DJs!

Gained weight recently. MUST STOP EATING!

I trimmed my eyebrows today.

2011-04-01T00:10:00.003+08:00

MMMHHMMM. Trimmed my eyebrows today. Which calls for camwhoring! Hurraye!

I'm going to do a quick post with like captions here and there. Cuz I am sleepy. GAWD, I gotta work on my spreads for the damned children book shiat. #@$@$@!!

I like it when my eyebrows got this kinda shape in the picture below.

Lol, ok enough about my eyebrows. Had a girlie outing with deb and mel.

Went all the way to Bark Cafe just to find out kitchen's closed and we can eat grass instead. HURHUR

OOOH , prettaye car. Adding it to my list of "MUST GET CARS WHEN I GROW UP"

Right now it's

1. Fair Lady (Nissan 370z)

2. Tuskani

3. GTR

uhhh, debbie the weird one. Just like Sly, she starts off her meals with dessert.

Omg, salsa nachos. I. CANT. GET. MY. HANDS. OFF. THE. PLATE.

SUPAH SPICYYYY TOMYUM SPAGHETTI. Ok, gotta stop typing in caps.

Lazy days calls for pizza hut delivery!

MMMM. Pepperoni my fave.

In love with meatballs. GIMMEH GIMMEH MEATBALLS.

Hello Sexy. Yes her name is Sexy. :D

Ladiesssss

2011-03-24T18:02:00.002+08:00

Some pics already in my facebook. But i'll just put 'em here. with Georgina ;

I think even plastic surgery cannot save my fat face.

Growing phatter and phatter

2011-03-20T16:10:00.003+08:00

Just woke up from a dream thats really weird, its sort of "Red Riding Hood" movie inspired and I was red riding hood who grew fat, and the wolf is a friend who ate up my grandmother and killed my family (which is the supposed village)...very very weird, and I ended up being deceived to a isolated hut and the wolf wanted to eat me (coz I was fat.).

Anw, Thai food AGAIN.

This time much better lah. Less spicy. Pineapple rice came and I was bewildered because the prawns came with only their shell (?!?) and its not only 1...its about 2 or 3 of prawnless shells. Just look at the picture below. I swear I have not even placed my fork on the plate yet.

I like the grilled chicken. Got chaota taste. Hehehez

The clear thai noodles that taste like hokkien mee.

Some teatime cravings for dimsum led to Din Tai Fung...

Funny faces.

An awesome song by Selena Gomez to share, kinda revolves around girls very much obsessed about beauty and being perfect. IMO, prefer this song over "fucking perfect" which is soooo over-hyped by everyone.

Selena Gomez - Who Says

toodles.

4 weeks

2011-03-15T19:59:00.002+08:00

Hello! Four more weeks till I graduate. Just. Can't. Wait. OMG! Yanno, when I figured its only a short amount of time before I'm finally free, I could feel mixed emotions stirring in my body.

I'm happy to be finally done with school, to finally say I have a diploma (if i pass that is), to finally earn REAL money (no more part-time petty cash), to finally announce to the world, "Hi, I'm a graphic designer/illustrator/image-maker."

I'm upset though, about leaving this place I've studied in for a few years of my life. The tao hway zui (soyabean) that I love dearly and drink almost every single week, Ah Mei cafe where I always lunch with Siti and Co. during foundation, Sim Lim Square's shanghai stall which I always dine with Meiting and Jenny during my Level1 and Level2. The muffins that gets sold out very fast at Sunshine Plaza, and the jokes we pull on the woman who works at 'Sarah's Place', like..."Her boyfriend must be Jack." or, "Let's guess what's she wearing. Nahh, don't have to." (Inside jokes with Mt and J) . The smell whenever I walk past 15minutes, the smell of the library's mac computers and books the moment I push the doors open.

My mind goes blank once someone ask me what I'm going to do after I graduate. I give crappy replies like, "probably taking a graphic design job?" But actually, I have no idea. I don't really think I am cut out for it, I don't think I can handle stress etc, I don't know what's going to happen and I don't know what I'm going to do....... I just hope things will work out the way I hope it would. The unknown is scary, isn't it?

Lol, that aside... I baked cookies. Been very long since I done that...ever since _______.

So many out of shape. Who cares, as long as its edible right. Lol.

Craving for thai food so went for SuanThai at Killiney Road....the bill came and it was shocking. -_-

I don't recommend it. Food is just so-so, service pretty acceptable, but I liked the mango salad. Maybe I just don't have a high spicy tolerance, the moment I eat too much chilli, my stomache seems to go on fire and I feel full instantly. Bah, that sucks!

Dictionary

2011-03-08T09:24:00.005+08:00

A very nice MV as usual from a thai song. Why can't everyone do their MVs like them :/ !? AND I LIKE THE PINK COLOR SNACK AT 0:35. Where to buy?! (Don't tell me thailand.)

Black Vanilla - Dictionary

Wan Tou Sek dimsum at Geylang. BEST EVER.

Hargows:

2x XiaoLongBaos:

King Long Bao (bigger version of the xiaolongbao. LOL):

Sharkfin Dumpling (must try!):

Crabmeat porridge. AWESOME.

Check out the cute ninja shirt that I've bought

SUPAH Maplestory. But I like.

Simple homemade barley, lovely.

Kelvin's birthday

2011-03-06T00:22:00.004+08:00

Caught a picture of him looking at cars. Always looking at cars ALL THE TIME.

New Mphosis shoes...

Went to dine at Rise at Marina Bay Sands. Rly not value for money TO ME because I'm not a raw person (sashimi, oysters, raw scallops, sushi nonononono)

My cold cuts to start my appetite

Can you spot how many different types of cheese I put on my plate? Lol

His plate

My plate

I had like many appetisers and also many of the seafood skewer. Awesome prawn grilled to perfection :D!

I like to eat lengmian (soba)

Nightfalls

Really liked the prime ribeye, although I gotta be careful with it because theres this huge strip of fat dangling at some corner. Lol

Some red wine to go along, and then I started spouting nonsense, like making toasts and saying "I wish you are happy, and healthy, and happy...oopps I said that before"

Really lovely mango soup for dessert and chocolate fondue marshmallows, biscuit etc.

Went back to his place to have a cake cutting session with his parents, with the cake I designed!

His favourite, Subaru WRX car. LOL.

Hope you had an awesome birthday my cutiepie :)

I'm so hungry after editing these pics. ZOMG. Craving for some Wan Tou Sek dimsums now! AHHHH. Save meh.

I was fat

2011-03-02T02:37:00.003+08:00

The middle one, is me. I used to be very fat. Ohmygod! Lol.

ok super short post. bye

KPOP

2011-02-20T22:46:00.002+08:00

So with the Kpop craze thats going on....I want to blog about my favourite boy,

G-DRAGON!!!

blonde hair, blazers & eyeliner. 'nuff said.

Updates here and there

2011-02-20T18:22:00.003+08:00

@ Graffiti cafe sometime back. Not eating, so I doodled :)

Showed kelvin my sketchbook.

I always get this paranoid feeling that when someone look thru my sketchbook and give no comment, it means i'm a failed designer. :(

meow.

Super in love with Geylang dimsum during late night!! But driving there is so dangerous! If only I can get there safely and worry-free...

Hargowz. Omg.

Very interesting to look at the nightlife happening in Geylang. For example, I saw this old man talking to this huge boobed woman and then somehow their conversation ended up in her rejecting him for something. HEHEHEHE i know im so kaypo.

Some pics with girlfriend

her fishball face

Vivo so prettyyyyy!

This year would be a pretty good one because I "lou hei" 4 times in CNY!

The last yu sheng for the last day of cny, lou hei with cutie pie at seoul garden. Lol

Vday present.

I'm so lazy to change the water for the flowers now so i'm letting them die now LOL.

to the boy who gave his all

2011-02-19T10:51:00.000+08:00

Mcfly - The Truth

because you don't have to plead your case

dramatic day

2011-02-16T00:18:00.003+08:00

Hello. Had the most dramatic vday ever. Lol. I'll update a long one soon. Feeling really full and satisfied and happy from dimsum at geylang. Wanted to go to the famous stall but it's damn packed. Shall return somedayyy.

if i said my heart was beating loud, if we could escape the crowd somehow +

2011-02-08T11:48:00.002+08:00

Chicken Pot with my darling

Ordered mild spicy but apparently their spiciness level is of different concept from mine

It was pretty nice just that the soup too gao (thick) ? Ordered two side dishes, super not value for money tho. I'd choose steamboat anytime. -_-

Gong cha finally!

Always wanted to try the much raved about Gong Cha and Koi, now I've finally tried Gong Cha, who cares about Koi ?!?! HEHEHEZ. Had honey lemon and wintermelon milk tea. The honey lemon like typical la, but wintermelon milk tea is AWESOMEZZ !! Lol. Sly went to peep at the person doing the drink and she said the person added something that looks like pancake mixture into the drink no wonder its so good.

Uhhh! Pancake mixture into drink? LOL

Random photos on our ride

I think she look like some chinese ghost with her new hairstyle

The song stuck on replay button now

Britney Spears - Hold It Against Me

hey, you might think i'm crazy, but i'm just your type

My first DND!

2011-02-06T00:01:00.002+08:00

Had my first company dinner and dance. It was awesome, I swear!

Above with colleagues from Hoshi.

My ever so caring mother teresa.

The helpful boy who always bully me, Ah Cong.

Alvin the lousy drinker.

Jieling, Alice (my fiercest manager!), Alvin and Ah Liang my cutest cook :D

Check out my table super ji li (auspicious):

Free flow redwine and beerrrrrr.

Yumyumyum

See the people there so rabak. Tsktsktsk

My cutest ah liang won the best kitchen staff award among all the outlets!! Yay so proud of him.

After party camwhore pics . Lol

A song for my heartbroken boy;

倪安東 Anthony Neely - 散場的擁抱 The Last Embrace

a.

2011-01-27T18:44:00.002+08:00

我做的一切都是为了你的幸福

Childhood

2011-01-23T23:46:00.002+08:00

Hi all! This is me. At...2 years old? Or 1... I have no idea, but somewhere there. And thats my favourite toy. You'll see why.

My grandma is a good cook. This is one of the party I had when I'm 2. Which explained my size when I started to grow up.

As the first child, I was very pampered. I had many toys.

Me with the favourite bear again.

I was a party girl since young! Woohoo. Lol

My first love, or boyfriend....(don't jealous ah someone.)

Stared at the photo below and realised that this will never happen again......

,.

2011-01-22T23:28:00.002+08:00

也许是多余了你离开我会过得更快乐。。但对于我，回忆就足够

MOOD.

2011-01-21T00:52:00.002+08:00

Been so moodless these days, I have no idea whats happening to me. Maybe its the syndrome I get when I don't club, since I've quit for 3 weeks now. Been drinking less too, which is good. I just found out that drinking hotwater makes me feel warm and fuzzy and happy lately. Weird.

Men Men Don Don at Nex mall. All the raving about the mall from everyone got me to visit it finally.

A really small space to eat, but for its food and price pretty worth it I guess.

Above, my tonkatsu ramen. Compared it with Matsu ramen from clarke quay.... far in comparison, but the price is a big diff too, so no complaints. Altho I do suspect the noodles are those maggie kind. -_-

Errr.. raw salmon and egg babies. No comment, do not like it.

Tried cheeseburger from freshness burger. Decided that Mcdonald's dble cheeseburger is still the best. :/

I rikeee the onion rings and potatoes. Portion reallyyyy small? For like, children I suppose. Or maybe I'm just a glutton? -.-

And this is before my horrible haircut.... :( Why oh why did I let a girl cut my hair!! I should ALWAYS let guy hairdresser cut my hair, they never go wrong. Everytime I let a female cut my hair, it goes wrong. I AM SO DEAD SERIOUS ABOUT THIS. Now I have ugly hair. I do not want to look into the mirror anymore.

Old old memories. Ditched this side of me. Bui bui .

rain rain go away...come again another day

Yummeh food & Potluck

2011-01-16T15:58:00.002+08:00

Been having tons of good food lately...

Beef bolognaise at my school's cafe. One of the most awsum bolognaise i've ever ate! The price is similar to Pastamania's, plus the ingredients are more and the taste is far more superior. I kind of stopped stepping into Pastamania alr, their standard varies at different outlets.

Fries from my school, have I mentioned already that its one of the best fries I've ever ate ? (I'd choose it over BFF any day)

Ikea for my swedish meatballzzz. Heheheeeee.

Summer breeze after work with cutie pie :)

Craving for tomyum....don't underestimate this orangey red hot mess.

It's seafood tomyum but its so damn hot?!? Sausage lips after I finished it. I really must remember to always ask for less chilli in my tomyum whenever I order...-_-

Yummeh yummeh nachos with salsa and cheese. The cheese damn epic lor! They have the cheese that we eat in the cinemas with the nachos, and also another baked layer of cheese on top, with capsicums and red peppers, tomato and salsa, omg droolinggggg.

Standard one tower one pint and ...... lol.

POTLUCK WITH FOURSOME!

KFC/MACDONALDS/PIZZA HUT/BAK KUT TEH. Omgodddz.

Polaroids we taken.

Lol, we took turns carrying each other! HEHEHE

xoxoxo

my drug

2011-01-12T03:43:00.003+08:00

but when i'm alone

no one hears me cry

i need you to know

i'm not through the night

sometimes i'm still fighting to walk towards the light

there were days where i'm okay

and for a moment, for a moment, i find hope

and there are days where i'm not okay

and i turn to alcohol for help

but together, we'll make it thru another day...

There is a world out there that we should see

2011-01-09T01:51:00.002+08:00

school's starting in approximately 1 day. life's gonna be hectic with work and school again, i hope i can keep hanging in there till august. i must.

Kitteh and me

2011-01-05T01:11:00.003+08:00

i'm sensitive when i have you boy.

NYE

2011-01-02T23:37:00.003+08:00

NYE spent with my lovely Foursome counting down, had toffeenut latte and caramel hot choc. The hot choc taste like milo just that its too gao (thick), it tasted gross.

Pear's injured finger (his hospitalized for a week! 3 surgeries done for a finger.)

After we finished counting down, we're off to buy some booze!

First drink of the year, Hoochies. Wth. -_-

We had to make toasts with a new year resolution.

Me: My new year resolution is not to make enemies.

Pear: I want to get out of fucking army.

Fin: I want to quit smoking and gaming.

Sly: I want to be happier.

Lets all make them come true, yes?

Off to Pear's house to slack.

Yumyum remy martin.

Pear gave this furry kitty to me!! I was really surprised because I was just playing with it and telling everybody this little furry thing is soooo damn cute, and he just said "you can have it." LIKE WOAHHH. Never ever is he sooo generous . HAHAHA

Cutie pie peanut so excited to see all of us after two months.

Hey, you was so easy to love. But wait, I guess love wasn't enough.

Last ladies night of 2010

2010-12-30T14:43:00.002+08:00

Been a blast, although the night ended badly. :( Made new friends, some out of the blue and some introduced. The crowd was friendly yesterday! The girls were awesomely polite. Been so long I've clubbed with nice ppl. When it got squeezy, a girl asked me if I was ok, and asked me to take care. Sooo different from the previous night I went Powerhouse. -_-

After taking the above photo, Sly emo'd and said, "My tongue is so short." Hahhahaa, yes dear, its short compared to mine. HAHAHA!

Summer peach drink. Idk what. From pizza hut. My first pizza hut in the whole of 2010. Wth?

Meatballzzzzz. I love beef meatballzzzz.

Kel stirring my drink. Teeheee.

2011 is coming. TIME FLIES.

Coz he is winning my heart,

2010-12-29T02:51:00.003+08:00

New year's around the corner, this year have been a blast for me. Many ups and downs, but it ended up a happy one. A picture of my bears given by cutie pie,

And a lovely song to share.

Dev - Monster

that boy is a motherfxcking monster, but i love him, i love him ~

~

2010-12-23T12:55:00.003+08:00

i won't run when the sky turns to flame

and i sure won't budge when the earth does shake

when the flood comes up i will dance in the rain

coz its all the same to me

You make me feel young all over again.

2010-12-22T23:22:00.003+08:00

Recently, I eat a lot. I mean a lot a lot. I can eat like, lets say, a bowl of noodles, and continue eating beryl's chocolates, sarah cake dripped with lots of hershey chocolate sauce, then eat some danish biscuits and grab another pack of twisties... and the list goes on and on and on. I'm packing on pounds, even when my colleagues saw me, they said I look like I had some extra meat on my waist! I rly rly must go and exercise.....pull my ass that is stuck on my bed like glue tomorrow.

Mixage partay with Sly. Hmmm, overall its pretty okay for a first time experience, but I know there won't be a second time i'll ever appear there again. -_-

It's in the genes to be a camwhore :S

My early xmas celebration with loveee,

2010-12-20T14:37:00.003+08:00

Christmas came early for me! And its filled with LOVEEE.

Open concept bathroom! LOL~

Who don't love Merlot?

Blasting songs and charging iphone at the same time;

Self concoction of jolly shandy.

Food filled with loveee, zero complaints.

Tomato soup.

Mmmhmmm, spaghetti bolognaise. I know I look weird in this position without my lashes mehhh.

White wine. Eeeeek. :/

A walk at Orchard; pretteh lightsss +

A morning with awesome breakfast,

Sauna and steam room are pretty amazing.

Lunch time. I love my steak sandwich with fresh onions and mustard.

Drank this so many times since I was there, my fave, Fruit Punch. TEEHEE

Missing this,

Pineapple fried rice! Can never ever get sick of it.

Argh, got drunk on the above, never gei kiang drink so much when theres only two person lah . But its fun and I will miss my Mel when shes gone now. :( Love and Peace, have a merry xmas all. XOXO

Eat eat, eat, and eat somemore.

2010-12-16T14:13:00.004+08:00

AHHH. I ate so much this week I really wanna punch myself in the face! Stepped on the weighing machine and...to my horror, I gained 2kg. Oh my goddd. I can see fat dangling from my thighs and wobble when I walk. ARGH! Whatever it is, people say, live life to the fullest. :)

Yuki yaki. I think I'm the only person that does this? I fry all the raw sashimi and ebi. HAHA!! I simply hate to eat sushi/sashimi/seaweed/ebi! I do not understand why but the ebi and sashimi taste awesome after cooked! Taste like smoked salmon and smoked ebi, all cooked by yours truly, MEH. Mwhahaha, I'm sucha genius sometimes.

I rike mochi. Not sesame. Green teaaaaa.

Jack's Place with colleagues. Their treat this time. :)

Seafood broth (with seaweed wth! taste like miso soup!)

Awesome, I had mixed grill. I kinda regretted though, sooo oily and sooo much fats on the meat!! I should have sticked with a tenderloin instead.

T-bone steak. Looks huge.

Yums chicken and prawn in pesto sauce.

Some kuku malu ordered tiger beer to drink at jacks place!!

In love with this expression,

& also in love with Taylor Momsen & The Pretty Reckless;

Shes sooooo sexyyyyy. Bedroom dark eyes, metallic blonde hair, lace and corsets, and sexaye voice. I'm thinking about dyeing my hair that colour already. Oh my god.

Summer Breeze tonight and a awesome escapade with my cutie pie tomorrow. :) So what if I've met shitty people, so what if they done wrong to me, I'm still smiling, and I'm still moving on. Catch ya laterzz!

Random iphone photos

2010-12-13T23:21:00.003+08:00

Ok, gonna blog with some random iphone photos i've taken.

Mural painting i've done for my workplace... nearly 12 hours of pure painting on several walls? Sketched and designed by yours truly, me, painted by me and also some help from my other colleagues. It is fun work at first, but after coming like 4 days in a row just to paint the wall, im getting sick of smelling poster paint and climbing up and down to do the murals. ARGH, glad its all over.

My favourite colleagues, love them all. :)

This is Ah Liang, he knows when I give :( this face means im hungry and he'll cook up some of the world's greatest foods for me. The most awesomest chef i ever know :D!

没有你的日子就象一个没有子弹的神枪手＋

Melissa have left the workplace. I don't know why I'm staying anymore. I've recently bought foods to give my colleagues. They find it weird. I don't normally do this. Perhaps its some sort of act to lessen my guilt, as I kinda have a feeling, that goodbye is near?

Always You - Sophie Zelmani

Addicted to acoustic now ♫

KTV !

2010-12-10T19:37:00.002+08:00

Am having a baddd sorethroat yet I still go sing, drink, and eat fried food, it's like I'm slitting my own throat. I wake up in the middle of the night couple of times with my throat hurting like someone is pulling a rope around it and strangling me :(! I can only blame myself right, I know ARGH.

KTV at OCBC with Tomi and his friends, I met up with them first as Sly was late. Had expensive chicken rice. :/

Choosing songs...

Awesome night as I sang all the old 5566 songs and it just brings back MEMORIES.

I loveee my blue furry jacket. Wheeewooweet.

Tomi doing handstand outside his office. Wtf.

I likey this candid picture.

Shuffle and tecktonik fun at boat quay. :)

DEAD

Group pic.

Never put a potato into a microwave oven.

2010-12-03T00:19:00.002+08:00

Errmm.. breakfast. I put a potato into a microwave oven thinking it could cook and soften up but that didn't happen, instead...it became like potato chips and felt like im biting on a rock. Omg, sometimes I'm so pea brained.

Drinking with Tomi, just chilling on a small amount of alcohol.

And in this picture...he looks like his doing something kinky:

LOL.

MY 20TH BIRTHDAY

2010-11-30T13:59:00.004+08:00

HAI ALL. Long post ahead. My 20th Birthday! Early birthday celebration solo with my girlfriend Sly. Awwh I love her to bits and pieces for planning everything for meeee. Shes such a sweetie pie. LOL.

We went on a date just the both of us to Cineleisure, for normal stuff like shopping, catching a movie, eating our favourite food (to think we have never done that at town before, when we know each other for nearly 8 years?)

OUR FAVOURITE BFF (Best Fries Forever!) Wild wild west flavour FTW.

Taking pics with the Xmas trees like tourists. LOL. :D

We even asked strangers to help us take photo. OMG.

Bus ride to Summer Breeze! She lied to me its just the two of us.

And then when we sat down... I heard a birthday song singing behind me and I see my wonderful colleagues popping out and a birthday cake for meeee!!! Omgg touched.

20 years old, 2 big candles enough but they wanna torture me by putting 10 small and 1 big so I can take my time to pluck them out one by one with my mouth. :(

This photo of Debbie & Me looks soooo cute.

Me: Must I really pluck them all with my mouth?

Melissa: Yeah you must!

Sly: wheeee.

Finally done. Can cut the cake liao. -_-

Many many beer tower. :(

FOODDDD. We ate like gluttons that day. -_-

Pineapple fried rice:

Holy shit gazourmous platter.

Chicken baked rice or something.

Crabstick with lemongrass pop?

Tomyum Spaghetti

I'm the slowest beer drinker around because beer is just.not.my.type.

I'm not lying!

Thank you for the presents, Melissa, Debbie, My mom, Sly for planning, My uncle, My sisters&brother, & Kelvin .. MUCH LOVES.

MY COUNTDOWN FOR MY BIRTHDAY

I LOVE MY HEADBAND!! TEEHEE. Its my birthday wish to wear it!

Elaine, Micky, Emily, Jason, Ks, & Tomi gang came down for my birthday countdown!

Jervis' specs.

On the podium and I stole IDK who's cap.

Fun birthday overall. Just that everyone got drunk xcept myself. LOL! :)

So yesterday

2010-11-23T14:59:00.003+08:00

Chilling with Tomi, Stanley, Jojo and my girlfriend

Lol Stanley without makeup...just can't get used to it.

Tomi has some noisy metal songs that I super duper hate.

Love Jojo's tecktonik moves. AWESOMEEE.

An awesome song to share

Toni Braxton - Yesterday

The song really explains a lot of YOU.

I'm done with this, feeling like an idiot.

and now you are so yesterday.

Reminisce

2010-11-22T11:51:00.002+08:00

Is this called an holiday when I'm working everyday? :( I can't kind of get the point of why I work so hard. To feed my materialistic needs, to stop taking money from parents, or to use the money for other hobbies such as cosplay or travelling? So many questions go through my mind everyday, no wonder I'm getting insomnia.

My tummy hurts from the stupid situps. :(

Kbox & Electro fun!

2010-11-18T13:28:00.003+08:00

Kbox session with Tomi, Stanley and Jojo!!

Tomi is singing Melody sooooo emotionally.

JOJO

Tomi swears upon Dove shampoo makes his hair smells good and nice and smooth but I think its all crap :) HAHAHA.

Stanley's specs.

LOL seh looks. I look chubby.

Visual Kei?

Wang ren fu look alike? LOL

ELECTRO TIME!

My failed jumpshots thanks to lousy photographer.

See, I'm talented.

Anisong 2010!

2010-11-14T14:39:00.002+08:00

Went down to support a friend who cosplayed yesterday! It was fun! I've never been to a cosplay event before. Hehe. Super fun to see people dressed in all kinds of anime characters and theres even somebody who cosplay as a book - Deathnote book. And Predator from alien vs predators... its super duper awesome.

Introducing the friend that we went down to support...

Cosplaying Son Goku of Saiyuki! (I think. Never follow the anime).

Look alike right!! (Credits here

Me and sly with Stanley!

Tomi and Stanley and Jojo

And then we went in the convention and I saw this super goodlooking guy who looked like some guy I know from some anime but whatever I was being so excited I wanted to snap a photo of him but I was really shy to ask! And Sly just dragged me and tapped his shoulder and he agreed with a very very serious look. LOL.

Look like a model eh!!

I met a super goodlooking Cloud Strife and Aeris.

They're so adorable!! Aeris is my favourite girl character in FF7!

The above pic is this dreamy looking pretty girl sitting on the floor and I had to squeeze with like 10 other photographers holding DSLRs and zoomed with my lousy digital camera to snap this poorly lit pic. :(

Dinner time!

Goku eating garlic bread?

Me and Sly went Cherry's chalet!

Tried a 60% alcohol and 75% alcohol - One shot and one sip each, and I flew high to the sky the next moment.

What a great day! :)

Owl

2010-11-10T12:29:00.002+08:00

Did this two days back when I was stressing out on school projects.

she looks to life like its a party and shes on the list

she looks at me like i'm a trend and shes so over it

oh pushing people down won't get you where you wanna go

and no amount of vintage dresses can give you dignity