So, like, I have been talking to Siti and she told me that if I want to improve my English (since it's been detiorating) I should read more and I think practise more? So I'm here to write a wordy post.
I have lots of things on my mind I just felt that I should share with everyone. Maybe you have experienced it before, maybe you know someone that has, idk, but...I feel like when people grow older, they seem to grow immune to things around them. Idk about others, but I do.
It's like, you care about your friends that smoke, but you just gave up caring because in the end, you grow immune from hearing their hundredth time telling you they are quitting. It isn't about feeling negative, no, it's just that you don't have feelings about it anymore.
Or another circumstance is when, at anywhere, you've been betrayed by a friend, a colleague, or a classmate. It's not the first time, you are angry yes, but I grow immune. I think the only thought that goes into my mind is, "Why am I not surprised?"
Another example could be, getting another relationship that just won't work out, and you just give up loving. Idk, people just don't give up loving totally, but what I mean is probably not trusting it would end up in a good way. For me, I just think negatively of having a relationship.
I wish I can stop this immunity, but sometimes, I think its the mechanism that helps me not to get hurt or feel hurt as I think I'm quite a sensitive person? I think too much. There are so many other things that I am immune about, family, life, people... I think I just feel like a shellfish who doesn't leave the shell. Eeks.
I have lots of things on my mind I just felt that I should share with everyone. Maybe you have experienced it before, maybe you know someone that has, idk, but...I feel like when people grow older, they seem to grow immune to things around them. Idk about others, but I do.
It's like, you care about your friends that smoke, but you just gave up caring because in the end, you grow immune from hearing their hundredth time telling you they are quitting. It isn't about feeling negative, no, it's just that you don't have feelings about it anymore.
Or another circumstance is when, at anywhere, you've been betrayed by a friend, a colleague, or a classmate. It's not the first time, you are angry yes, but I grow immune. I think the only thought that goes into my mind is, "Why am I not surprised?"
Another example could be, getting another relationship that just won't work out, and you just give up loving. Idk, people just don't give up loving totally, but what I mean is probably not trusting it would end up in a good way. For me, I just think negatively of having a relationship.
I wish I can stop this immunity, but sometimes, I think its the mechanism that helps me not to get hurt or feel hurt as I think I'm quite a sensitive person? I think too much. There are so many other things that I am immune about, family, life, people... I think I just feel like a shellfish who doesn't leave the shell. Eeks.
continue basking in your lies, it's a beautiful and cruel world out here.
