MC

it has been 6 days of not working. 

6 freaking days

what have i spent these days on?

mindless arguments

engulfed in xmas activities

 most importantly. this 6 days have me finally making up my mind.

i'm about to resign. 

i'm so clueless, so so clueless what kind of path am i supposed to take

i'm sure everyone is afraid of what their future may bring.

i'm terribly frightened. i'm worried when my parents are old, i can't have enough money to support them.

i'm worried for my young siblings who have yet to even complete primary school.

and yet right now, i still can't bring myself to save money nor have a decent plan for the future

so many unanswered questions

i wish i can just shut myself and never have to wake up again

would death have been a better choice if the world really ended on 21.12?

i wish theres somebody who can answer me.

I am titanium

Some random piccies from my iphone.

Stole some of ma daddy's wine and have been drinking it for quite some time at late nights whereby I needed some escape.

Crazy amount of chicken wings with B and D, and one of those times i didn't drive to ikea. Chatted about muay thai and boxing/wrestling. Suddenly have an urge to go enroll into some lessons for it. I'm quite scared I'll just get beaten up into a pulp by other girls and cry lol. If they punch my eye i probably have my lens broken into pieces and I'd just cry like no mother no father. 

 

Random day went down to Avalon to chill out but never club with my foursie and b.

Thinking about giving one more shot, for design. Should I?

First step, resignation.

x

Accused

i'll never be your mother's favourite

your daddy won't even look me in the eye 

if i was in their shoes i'll be doing the same thing

because there goes my little boy, walking with that troublesome girl

To Live

"a hummingbird flew up to me, and just hovered there staring at me. It's tiny heart was pattering like a machine gun ... And I thought, what a thing, you know, to have to work that hard every day, just to stay alive, to be constantly on the verge of the death, and how satisfying every day must be that it survived."

-Klaus / The Vampire Diaries


 

Drunk Birthday

Met up with ma girls to go V4. Hilarious thing is i forgot which floor, and me and sly were stupidly pressing the floor one by one from level 9 to level 3. -_-

So glad I have them, as I was feeling low on my birthday and probably a little bit crazy. Sly told me - "When were you never crazy? You are always crazy." Girlfriends know girlfriends well. HAHA.

Was sabo-ed by them to go up stage for a 5 seconds, I was so unwilling I'm literally hiding underneath the table. The guy who had same birthday as me got tortured longer. Heng ah. Hahahhaa. And that marks the end of my 22nd. x

My Early 22nd Birthday Celebration!

Hey guys! Here to blog on my 22nd. Time flies and i'm a year older soon. Sucks to think I'm going to become a lao zhar bor soon. 

Random photo on the way to collect the helium balloons.

These balloons are a pain in the ass. Because B was holding it during check-in, and I think he got lazy and went to let go of half the balloons, we had a hard time finding for it and next thing we realized its above a really high ceiling in the lobby, and maintenance staff had to use a long stick to get it down -.- anyhoo...

Our lovely room!

Jacuzzi.

Cocktail evening with B at the club lounge. (:

Food is really awesome! I was so bloated although they were all appetizers only. HAHA!

The desserts were really weird though, they had this really sour taste in the chocolates and cakes.

chillin with the white wine x

Friends arrived! We played games, drank a lot and laughed a lot. 

Candid photo of me unwrapping a present nick & co got for me.

With ma boys.

Hilarious how we tried to chill the Moet.

Cake that Sly baked for meee!

Gurrrlfriends for lifeeee xx

Yummy tiramisu cake!

So like we drank like 5 diff kinds of alcohol. I fell asleep cuz I was too tired. Hahahaha!

Anyway everybody had fun, and I'm glad. 

Brekkie in the morning.

Randomz: My simple french nailzzz.

Having my 1 week leave now. Really tempted to have a small getaway. @_@

till then. xx

Feel So Close

My favourite scene from The Vampire Diaries. I JUST WISH I WAS HER!

x

Andy's Wedding!

Attended Andy's wedding on last sunday.

Indeed... MC the next day for work due to laziness ):

My first wedding dinner without my parents and with my baby boyfriend (:

And we got lost while driving there and it was a 45minutes drive to Bukit Timah. Z.

Food was not bad. I got an extra bowl of shark fin from my colleague!

Wondering when it is finally my turn for a wedding, what will it be like?

Life seems to past wayyy too fast its pretty scary.

This few days been having lots of ups and downs.

Am glad everything is smoother now and my 1 week leave is coming. 

I CANT WAIT. A week of pure relaxation. YES!

Just a fool

You
I had my heart set on you
But nothing else hurts like you do
Who knew that love was so cruel

And I
Waited and waited so long
For someone to never come home
It's my fault to think you'll be true
I'm just a fool

 

Another shot of whisky please bartender
Keep it coming til I don't remember at all

Black steamboat

Headed down to Florence Road for my much craved black steamboat with ma homies.

Its like darn awesome and cheap, we only paid like $10 each for a big bowl of chicken, hotdogs, crabmeat, oyster mushrooms and fishballs. AWESOME OR AWESOME?!

Anyway, I'm so excited for my bday...finally a chance for me to relax and also enjoy with all my loved ones. I have so many ideas! I checked out numerous hotels, and the one I finally settled with is costly. ): seriously having second thoughts, but what matters is everyone gets to enjoy once in a lifetime right?! Sadly won't be inviting my colleagues and others... because I don't plan on having anyone get left out.
 

I have a real bad habit of eating good food. and all this is going to stop until I am not so broke. ):