; chuck and blair

wish you knew.

Powerhouse!

PH with Emily again. Ran everywhere except the danceflr. What the hell.



Desmond treated us moet (:









Sebas!





Then sebas got drunk, em took care of him, and I was falling asleep.









Headed down to Titanium with casey.



sibei shag, kena drag to MBS to walk walk -___- !



Fell asleep in the cab, and died at home. Awesome. XoXo

Lol seriously

some people are being sucha joke. is it a sin to even try to be happy?



is it my fault that i can't move on? who held on to who in the first place. biatch. if you have just broken up, i would like to see you moving on within just weeks. fuck face. anyway, yesterday was GEE GEE GEE GEE with Jenny . Srsly?!?!



Hahaha! was pretteh fun actually, till she got drunk.. that place is a joke i swear. coz the girls they hire are the ugliest ive ever seen working. -____- ! Hahahaa. + inexperienced and boring. the singing is okay larh.. but still lose out a lot compared to other places.

pardon this post, i am feeling a bit angsty.



miss the parrot night. another night of bu zui bu gui again. oleh oleh oleh!

FOR ALL HATERS:



keep on hatin' on me (:

Ex

It's not a question of love, as our love has never changed.
But all the little things keep piling up, and life keeps coming in the way.
Don't make it harder than it is, we both knew it would come to this.
Better now than in a year, more nights of tears where we both hate each other
Somethings we won't understand, and we are both so tired of being misunderstood
and what's the use of going on, if we are lying to each other about every word that is said
it's too late for us now, as we can never calm down
So let's just turn around and walk away, and hold on to what was good
just let it go...

going to stop thinking for tonight.

Ni Hao Ma?

i'm tired. i'm mentally tired.
i don't know what i'm doing most of the time anymore.
i feel like im just doing very normal things. going to work, going out, watching movie, eating food, going to party. yet...i feel like the real me is hiding somewhere inside, and the person that is doing all the stuff outside, i don't know who she is. to be honest, i laugh even harder, i smile even broader, i talk even more, it's getting very weird, because I don't know if i mean everything i do, even to myself. STOP BEING AN EMO NEMO BELLE. FFFFFF.

xiang zhi dao, ni zui jin guo de hao ma?
mei you wo, ye xu shi zong jie tuo...

jenny lok is a stupid meanie!!!

Hai all. What the shit. I'm supposed to be happily sleeping in lalaland but thanks to Jenny Lok i'm awake after sleeping only 3 hours?! F. JENNY LOK IF YOU ARE SEEING THIS YOU OWE ME A LOT! Ok, imma blog about yesterday.



Powerhouse with Emily. First time going with her only without Sly. hurhurhur! was pretty fun (:



hahhaha silly girl keep saying "BELLE I SEH ALR I SEH ALR DONT POUR FOR ME" hahahaha!



Left ph early at 4am as they were playing electro and emily doesn't like it. lolll. wanted to bring her along to siamtiu but she has work tmr! gahh! next time then :S went down to golden mile to meet Jenny the idiot, and who knew the thai club was alr closed. -___-



Suggested resort at ecp, and down we went~



Almost bought this hello kitty specs that this siambu is wearing from TM, but then changed my mind the other day. luckily i did, cuz everyone is wearing this stupid hello kitty act cute specs. HURHUR



After Resort, idiotic jenny lok forced me to eat mac with her. Although i didnt even feel like eating! I felt like puking!!! She still force me to eat half of her big brekkie deluxe. What the hell. I don't even know why I even bother listening to her. GAHHH!!



After Mac we played with parrots. OMG. Two drunkards playing with a big bird and a baby bird. The owner must be worried we might snap the birds like twigs. -___-

Most epic thing is, I left early and went home because she is crazy/stupid/mad/brainless and want to watch the sunrise and I seriously cannot be bothered with sunrises or sunsets and just wana sleep.

STUPID GIRL LOST HER PHONE IN THE BLOODY CAB. What the fuck?! Most epic thing is, who the fuck leaves the cab driver with their friend's number for contact instead of their own?!! And hence the cab driver called me in the middle of my sleep. I was sleeping very soundly when the cab driver made me go down to collect J's iphone. F!!! I was so worried, the uncle still can ask me to pay him the cab fare TO AND FRO from punggol to his taxi centre, wana take down my IC etc, so f troublesome. Kay larh, I'll just forgive him, he so kind right.

The thing is, I walked out of my condo in my pyjamas, hair in a mess, bare face and dark eye rings, still unsober and walking zigzagged, drenched in the rain while waiting for the cab, just to collect her stupid phone. GAHHH!! Seriously!!! And now I can't get to sleep. Very nice. Very welldone. Jenny Lok you will be the death of me ever since school days. My life is shortened after knowing you.



Ok I'm gona try to sleep later. #@%@#%

Nothing but a fool, nothing but a player

finally saw your true colours.
don't worry... everything is officially over, done & finished.
can't believe i even held 1% hope that things might go back to how they were.
now i will not feel a single pang of guilt as i try my best to move on.
i can't believe i was so naive to have trusted you,
when whatever we had actually meant nothing after i've seen all ur lies.
i'm going to be happy. i'm going to get a better life.
and it is one without YOU.
F.O

move onnnnnnnnnn.

Been going out a lot lately. Trying to be busy at work, busy at home, busy outside. Just to stop myself from having too many thoughts. Tried to finish all my work at work, altho thats impossible. Played games at home, so that time passes fast. Went to drink and club, just to catch up with all those peeps i've left behind for the past 2 mths.

Idk how long I am going to keep this up. When I'm going to stop and really relax, and think about where do i go on from here (?) . Sigh. Anw, went for dinner with P for some sukiyaki and beef shabushabu at Suki ya.



The q for the carpark was damn longggg.



I got pink feet !



This acrylic gear thing really cute eh.



Cute paper thingy they have to give you tips on a nice shabu shabu experience.





beef is effing fresh ! LOVEEE.





face like a plain today. ):

bye all, another week of work comes and lets hope days pass as quickly as they can.

///

did you love me
the same way that i loved you
or was it just a moment
that you ever felt you were deeply in love with me?

Have you ever loved me

why do i feel you are so distant, i feel like i'm so exhausted trying so hard .
and if i give up, will you still be there to tell me not to?