MC

it has been 6 days of not working. 

6 freaking days

what have i spent these days on?

mindless arguments

engulfed in xmas activities

 most importantly. this 6 days have me finally making up my mind.

i'm about to resign. 

i'm so clueless, so so clueless what kind of path am i supposed to take

i'm sure everyone is afraid of what their future may bring.

i'm terribly frightened. i'm worried when my parents are old, i can't have enough money to support them.

i'm worried for my young siblings who have yet to even complete primary school.

and yet right now, i still can't bring myself to save money nor have a decent plan for the future

so many unanswered questions

i wish i can just shut myself and never have to wake up again

would death have been a better choice if the world really ended on 21.12?

i wish theres somebody who can answer me.

I am titanium

Some random piccies from my iphone.

Stole some of ma daddy's wine and have been drinking it for quite some time at late nights whereby I needed some escape.

Crazy amount of chicken wings with B and D, and one of those times i didn't drive to ikea. Chatted about muay thai and boxing/wrestling. Suddenly have an urge to go enroll into some lessons for it. I'm quite scared I'll just get beaten up into a pulp by other girls and cry lol. If they punch my eye i probably have my lens broken into pieces and I'd just cry like no mother no father. 

 

Random day went down to Avalon to chill out but never club with my foursie and b.

Thinking about giving one more shot, for design. Should I?

First step, resignation.

x

Accused

i'll never be your mother's favourite

your daddy won't even look me in the eye 

if i was in their shoes i'll be doing the same thing

because there goes my little boy, walking with that troublesome girl

To Live

"a hummingbird flew up to me, and just hovered there staring at me. It's tiny heart was pattering like a machine gun ... And I thought, what a thing, you know, to have to work that hard every day, just to stay alive, to be constantly on the verge of the death, and how satisfying every day must be that it survived."

-Klaus / The Vampire Diaries